Time Out
It was my birthday last week. if your asking how it was, well it was relatively ok… well slightly better than last year at least… i spent the morning and the better part of the evening with this girl i like. but she doesn’t really like me the same way so thats not much of a consolation.. and that means another year has past of heartbreaks and tears… well i did have a girlfriend this year. for a month at least so that went well(yeah right)… my mom pushed me once to go out with the daughter of her friend who lives in the states. they said, my mom and aunts, it would be an easy pass to abroad… what?! it probably sounds practical but i’m not one to use people for personal gain. maybe ask a couple of favors here and there but thats it… i believe iv still got that much integrity. if theres something i like i would like to work for it… thats maybe the reason my last relationship didn’t work out. it was too easy… but i must admit i still feel some of the effects that that episode brought to my life… anyway, now i’m just sad in general. i find myself lacking the drive and intensity i had a couple of months ago. there’s still purpose but now i lack… inspiration… motivation…
