Time Out
July 7th, 2005 by avengeroneIt was my birthday last week. if your asking how it was, well it was relatively ok… well slightly better than last year at least… i spent the morning and the better part of the evening with this girl i like. but she doesn’t really like me the same way so thats not much of a consolation.. and that means another year has past of heartbreaks and tears… well i did have a girlfriend this year. for a month at least so that went well(yeah right)… my mom pushed me once to go out with the daughter of her friend who lives in the states. they said, my mom and aunts, it would be an easy pass to abroad… what?! it probably sounds practical but i’m not one to use people for personal gain. maybe ask a couple of favors here and there but thats it… i believe iv still got that much integrity. if theres something i like i would like to work for it… thats maybe the reason my last relationship didn’t work out. it was too easy… but i must admit i still feel some of the effects that that episode brought to my life… anyway, now i’m just sad in general. i find myself lacking the drive and intensity i had a couple of months ago. there’s still purpose but now i lack… inspiration… motivation…
fantastic four comes out july… lifetime… speaking of the marvel u, that brian micheal bendis is in human… how many books is he writing? ultimate spider-man, new avengers, and all those specials coming up titled the house of m… street fighter is on a break… aftermath will be on hiatus after six ish… the "new" g.i. joe is coming up… by the way why is jerwa moving out after the excellent storyline that was the circuis of the red shadows and being replaced by casey? i believe jerwa deserves credit for making the title all that interesting with all that twists he made… where is he going after "the rise of the red shadows"? gotta watch out for that guy… he’s a monster with a pen and paper… hmmm… what else? had a nice summer vacation over the holy weeks… the highlight of course being the overnight swimming mitch and i had… damn best night of my entire year so far… i hope she’d arrive sooner… i miz that crazy person… hmmm… did a booboo over my bubu, sorry, ex-bubu over the summer… honestly, i dont get it… oking and i sort of talked about this… at this point i want to be in a long term relationship… really… just have someone to care for and also someone take care of you at the same time… but not all the time… is it too much to ask? i guess its just ironic… it started with the unlimited calls and it ended because of it… but truth be told, i didn’t want it to end… i never really considered it… but she did… just because of small things that really didn’t matter… i didn’t want it to end… but confusion and your freedom being taken away really messes you up when you’ve been used to being alone not a care in the world… i did some bad things… very mean things… i didn’t expect it to escalate that far, but it did, and to the people affected, i’m really sorry you got caught up in this mess… i really really am sorry for everything… even if i don’t say it aloud… it was meant only as a joke… on april fools… i’m really really sorry… but times like these really separates the people with shallow minds from those with compasionate hearts and broad thinking… little things such as this "incident" couldn’t break down something that was built for years on solid foundations… because no matter what… even if we change… even if we part ways… the good things always wins over the bad things… and our hearts shall be binded forever by a single strand of string called friendship… 